it doesn't even matter

i watch other people

all the attention they get

for things that i can do

and it makes me feel

small

insignificant

unloved

don't they see me?

don't they see what i can do?

why don't they understand?

why don't they like me?

why don't they tell me what they think?

i watch other people

get so many friends

so much praise

and they just bask in it

and why shouldn't they?

but aren't i as good as they are?

don't people care about me?

don't they understand?

i watch other people

and see the things they do

and suddenly i feel

like i can never do anything right

because who can stand

against those other people?

who everyone says is so amazing?

who can stand?

certainly not me

and suddenly

i realize

it doesn't even matter

they don't know me

none of them do

but who cares?

i do what i do

 i serve My God

i do what i have to do

and it doesn't matter about them

because this is between me and God

and it doesn't matter

it might still hurt

it might still give pain

but it won't hurt me

like it did before

because i'm stronger now

and it doesn't even matter