Friday, May 24, 2013

I'm not really who I want to be...

what are five words that you want to describe you?

kind. loving. caring. mature. funny.

am i even any of those?

i realize that with shame that i'm not really any of those.

That's the depressing part about doing that kind of a thing. I'm pretty sure that that's^ what I put in my "Thoughts Journal" last night. Kind of sad, isn't it? I'm not even what I want to be. I almost feel like the opposite.

I just feel like that I'm not who I want to be. Who God wants me to be. Like I'm just this little annoying person that everybody hates. But I don't want to be that. I want to change. But it's harder then it sounds to try and change what you've been for your entire life. Trust me.

Let's just say I forgot the part about praying to God and asking for His help. *palm to forehead*

So I'm just going to do it here, even though it's in every beat of my heart.

Dear God, please let me to grow in You. Please let me to become the girl that you want me to be. Please let me keep on becoming more and more like You. Amen.

thanks for reading||what are five words you want to describe you?


  1. beautiful...absolutely beautiful. <3

    five words that would describe me:
    introverted, kind-hearted, competitive, hmm...I'm really not sure what other words I would use to describe *myself*. :)

    lovely post. :)

  2. Hmm, I guess I can relate. Though in a different way. People say I'm kind and nice, that I'm passive, that I let everything go other people's way all the time, instead of mine, that I need to stand up for myself more often. I want to be more tough, to stand up for my rights and voice my opinions instead of being someone who gets trampled and tossed around.

    Basically, we're wishing for completely different things, Storyteller.

    1. That's kind of interesting that we would both want to change like opposites, huh?

  3. Ahh,what would I like to describe myself as?

    ALWAYS Kind- with my words to be specific
    Respectful-as in not sarcastic

    Soo..yeah now you know what I'm working on.


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